Sep 30 - Immaturity

I planned on talking all night long with him despite of my constant sleep deprivation lately and I just found out that he was leaving to the gym. That may not seem like a good reason to start a fight with, but for someone with such low maturity level like mine (whose mind has been clouded by many things and to be honest, overworked from the little sleep for almost three weeks now), this can create drama. And I just happen to be the most immature drama queen.

It went like this: he was distracted all night because of this and that --> we had an argument about the distraction --> he told me he forgot to tell me he was leaving in 10 minutes --> I got mad and exit WhatsApp --> he left because he didn't think I'd come back --> I came back to find him gone and think, "He doesn't fight for me anymore!"

Even I specifically asked his sister for an advice because that night I didn't think I was gonna survive this LDR. There are no words to describe my stupidity that time and every time I am reminded of it (like now), I am disgusted by myself. I went to sleep that night with teary eyes, still under the false impression of him leaving me because I was too pushy. Ugh, what is wrong with me!

He came home from the gym to find me sleeping already. No, scratch that. He came home from the gym to find my angry messages that left him completely puzzled. He wrote back explaining his opinions about this matter and tagged a picture along.

If only he knew by the time I received the picture, the following morning, all the anger had gone away.

Sep 30 - Hint of Jealousy

"Can I ask you something? Who's that guy you embraced on Facebook?"

The beesting. The hint of jealousy. Wait, who was he referring to? I rushed to my laptop to guess which picture he meant. Since he asked now, most probably it's one of the pictures taken at the conference. What the hell did 'embrace' mean anyway? I hug my guy friends' arms, yes, but I didn't think it was ever more than that. And hugging friends' arms for me is like... the most normal thing in the universe. Don't tell me I did something unconsciously and it will be something he can use against me.

Apparently what he meant was a picture of Tegar and I. In the picture I hugged Tegar's arm. Okay, maaaybe I leaned a little bit closer towards him, but it's Tegar. From the very beginning of our relationship, I've already told him there are three guys that he couldn't touch: Araz, Daus, and Tegar. Together with the warning that one time was, "If you ever saw a picture of me with them on Facebook," See, I had that feeling that he'd use Ana's account! "you should never be jealous because they are off-limits."

It's really cute when your boyfriend gets a little jealous of other guys. My heart warmed at that. :) :) :) I'm not mad nor annoyed. I just wish he'd see the name of the guy tagged in the picture with me before asking me that as if I would ever get cozy with a guy and leave the guy wanting or getting more. I don't want him to find me not trustworthy. He's the only one that I want.

Oh, just in case you want to know his reason. "I know Honey, it's not about the boys. I'm not afraid, because I trust you. I just think it hurts to see other boys holding you while I would do anything for it." <3

Sep 30 - Habit

I totally forgot to ask him for his roster this week! Especially this Monday, I just assumed he didn't have a class in the morning so I didn't text him a good morning when I woke up. I figured I'd just WhatsApp him around my 12. But of course I assumed wrong. Sad, he texted me, "No good morning. (heartbroken)"

Reading that I panicked. I stormed off to Daddy's study to grab a marker and a piece of paper. I drew as fast as I could and send him this right when he got into the train to school.

When he replied with "Babyyy (closing eyes monkeys). Only the most amazing girlfriend could do that. (heart)", I finally could let out a loud sigh knowing he's forgiven me entirely. Note to self: Always text your boyfriend when you wake up!

Sep 29 - The Master Plan

I woke up in the middle of the night finding the good night message he left for me. I rushed typing to see if he was still awake and thank goodness he was. We talked about little things for some moment before discussing the big topic.

So ceteris paribus we'll see each other when he comes down to Jakarta in August 2014 for my birthday, my graduation, and our first anniversary. What will happen once he flies back home?

Being a realistic we both really are, he addressed his concern about another ultra-long separation caused by our permanent jobs after school. If I didn't love him this much, I would just be like, "Why are we even talking about this? Let's just enjoy what we have now." But I do love him, so I addressed my concern about my fear of us growing out of love caused by that ultra-long separation.

The two-hour intense conversation resulted in possible options that we can choose sometime in the near-future. I've made plans for myself, he's made plans for himself. But that's the thing about being together with someone, right? You modify your own plans and create a new one that works for the both of you. I hope this works for us.

Sep 29 - Slipped Off Confession

Although I've put an end to my competition and conference madness, I have yet to regain my strength. I still couldn't give him my undivided attention and I found it bothering. He never was mad, never. But when I fell asleep again (for the umpteenth time these past weeks), he accidentally said something in his good night message that broke my heart. I don't think he realized it, because for him this would only look like a normal message (with a twisted meaning), but always beware of a girl's sensitivity when it comes to these things. And if he didn't read this blog, he would never realize that one little thing he once said has been haunting me to date (Hi Honey! :P).

"I hope the day we can say good night at the same time will come fast.. I hate to be alone every night. But I know you are dreaming of me. And you know I will scroll to all the pictures you sent me and it will make me smile again."

I always think missing him in the mornings is hard. But now that he's mentioned it...... If not being able to talk to your significant other when you wake up is already bad, imagine how bad not being able to talk to him/her when you go to sleep. I never thought about how it must feel in the other end. </3 How does he manage to stay this whole time..?

Sep 27 - Leave a Message

Fact #1: I had a wonderful day at the conference.

Result from fact #1: I'm now getting more attached to this conference for now I have talked personally to almost all of the delegates. They're genuinely good people and to be honest, I feel more of a delegate than a committee, hihi. My extra good mood was maintained at its finest from the very beginning of the day to the very end.

Fact #2: I had a fantastic night karaoke-ing with several delegates and liaison officers.

Result from fact #2: Even tighter bonding with the conference participants and that I lost my voice from hyperactive singing and dancing. I could never look at the cool-looking delegates the same way again, now that I've seen how imbicile they could be in the karaoke room full of 40 people, hahaha.

Fact #3: I had my internet connection off most of the time. Luis and I didn't get to talk at all. We were both busy that all we did all day was leaving a message for each other to read and reply when we could.

Result from fact #3: I missed him to a certain degree that couldn't be expressed in words. Suddenly my decision to spend the night at the hotel with my vice Meike was a smart move! Right after we got back into the hotel before midnight, I cleaned up and did this and that and we finally could be on the phone for almost an hour. The wifi was weird that I could listen to his voice only when I put him on loudspeaker, haha, so Meike was there to listen to everything. But it felt comfortable. They even exchanged hi's! Hihi.

Fact #4: I had a perfect September 27. Fact 1, 2, and 3 blended altogether creating a completion and balance for a simple girl like me.

Result from fact #4: Guess who goes to sleep smiling and giggling!

Sep 26 - Warmth and Shivers

I didn't think I would enjoy the conference so much! I was busy running around greeting people (It was really amazing meeting everyone you usually only talk about in emails in person!) and doing other stuff too (I couldn't be happier for having chosen my two vice directors and sixteen Liaison Officers as my staffs). As a result, my internet connection was off almost the entire time to save the battery (I keep everyone's number on Samsung which is where the WhatsApp is on), so we weren't really talking.

After the conference agenda was done for the day, we went to the hotel to let the delegates change their clothes because we were taking them to a restaurant for dinner. Dinner was crazy and we were having so much fun! About 8.30pm that night, I turned on my connection to see if he was online. I figured I could leave him a message to let him know I would be home in three hours or so. And voila! I have an image waiting on WhatsApp.

My insides clenched. I didn't care that some people looked at me curiously to know why I was smiling so widely. There should be a policy against the most amazing boyfriend to stop acting so sweet.

That night when I got home, the connection was really bad. We tried multiple times to be on the phone but it was really hard. I think the accumulation of all the successful calls was only around one minute. To worsen things up, I fell asleep in the middle of the next attempt. I'm impossible sometimes. And somewhere in his always-sweet good night message that night, I found this, "...I really missed you today. It was stronger than the other times I missed you. That explains my feelings for you and how bad I want you. I know you had a great day, so that makes me feel good. And I heard your voice although the connection was awful..." I shivered at the warmth he's giving me.

Sep 25 - Life and Its Irony

Last night I worked all night at Starbucks. We only got 50 minutes of sleep from 4.10 to 5.00 at dawn, so basically it was a nap and no sleep at all. And for that sleepless night, he sent me the sweetest form of a good night message: a lovely bedtime story (it was too sweet I couldn't even retype it without feeling electrocuted, hihi). 

Oh, life and its irony.

The report was finally done about one and a half hours before the deadline. Skipping breakfast (I only had a tall glass of caramel macchiato and a warm espresso brownie after dinner last night), we went back to the city to have lunch. And I could feel my resistance level went slowly deteriorating. The packed up train home and the blazing sun were everything that drained my energy. Even so, I fortunately still managed to make a few phone calls to my vices to let them know I couldn't make it to the 2pm agenda of the conference because I still had to go home and changed clothes. I said I would be there for the opening ceremony at 7 that night.

And when I got home, I was burning. I tried taking a shower to make me feel better but the fever just wouldn't go away. I lied down in bed hoping to recover quickly but I couldn't even get any sleep for my phones just kept on ringing and so did my tablet because apparently things were not going as planned at the conference. To make it worse, I had to look up for data I keep in my laptop. So imagine breaking down physically and mentally. There was no way I could go back to Depok and attend the opening ceremony. I put a lot of effort these past months to arrange this conference, and I couldn't even be there on the first day.

Oh, life and its irony.

Sep 24 - Guilt

Waking up this morning, I rushed to school to meet my team and finish the report. I just couldn't wait to get this over with hopefully by this afternoon so I could go home and make my monthversary present for him in the evening. There was this one time during he shocked me with an "I love you" message he sent two hours after our last text which completely caught me off-guard.

And the damned thing happened. I miscalculated. The report was far from being done. There was just so much to do that we had to go to Starbucks (opens 24-hr) and work all night there. I definitely wasn't prepared for this. I had no spare clothes, no soap, no shampoo, and most importantly, no piano. How was I supposed to make his present now!? I could still make it the day after, but I would've lost the momentum. I felt really guilty for not being able to give/make anything in return and his calmness made the feeling even worse.

There goes our first month anniversary of him treating me like a princess and me taking it for granted. I made him a deal, we take turns to give a present for every month we spend together. Because this first monthversary he made me something, I'll make something next month, he'll make another thing the month after, and so on. He agreed with this and it relieved me a little.

Despite of the guilt.... I don't think I've been happier celebrating my one month together with a guy.

Sep 24 - One Month Together

24/8/13 to 24/9/13!

You know how girls make a big deal out of everything in a relationship and guys are like, "Yeah, whatever"? I don't feel that with him. He knows I've been really looking forward to this date for it will be our first ever month-anniversary (monthversary) and I can tell he's just as excited as I am about this!

What has been eating me alive is the fact that I haven't been able to give him my full attention due to this report I'm doing that is due tomorrow at 12pm and the conference I'm holding is starting tomorrow at 2pm. We've been talking less and less since the last week and although it's breaking my heart, there's nothing I can do about it. But he... He understands. Of course he would occassionally include "I know there will be days like this when we can't talk much. It's just that I missed you.." in this good night messages, but his patience with me through these busy days and nights leaves me in awe.

V: 00:00. Happy 1 month <3<3
L: Yeayyy happy 1 month <3<3 Wait a second!
V: Hihi what!
L: You don't know this, but there is a rule in the player handbook!! When you are with a girlfriend for 1 month or longer, you lose the status of a player.. Sorry Sayang, you can't call me Player anymore <3<3
V: Oh, of course you are still a player. A player who is under a spell of a pretty witch. (colorful hearts)
L: Hmm I will be the player, only if you don't break that spell. (closing eyes monkey)

He baked special cookies of "Victoria & Luis 1 Month Together" and "Your Bee" to celebrate our first monthversary. My jaw dropped. I can't help but feel really, really special knowing our relationship means that much to him.

V: Why are you doing this much of an effort for someone like me...

L: Because you deserve it Baby.. Only you can't see that or you don't want to say it!

V: I don't think I've given you enough of anything in our relationship..

L: Why not?

V: The furthest thing I've done is giving you my heart. Not even attention; you've been lacking it for sometime now. (heart)

L: The lack of attention is only because you are busy with school. Before that you gave me much attention. You know I'm okay if you have to do things for school/work/family. And your heart is the only thing I need. (heart)

V: Give me one good reason why I shouldn't beg to talk to you over the phone now.

L: Don't know Sayang. Wanna call? (blushing)

V: Do you? (blushing)

L: Always (blushing)

By that we had the longest call to date of three hours on the phone. He tried different approaches to end the call to give me some sleep but I was so stubborn not to. Everything felt right. I know I have a long day ahead and two hours of sleep won't be sufficient but I want to let him know none of the little things he does for me are left unnoticed. But hands down, the good night messages (he wrote two long parts) are just the Ace cards. It was undoubtedly the happiest feeling to go to sleep with. And to wake up to the following morning!

Sep 20 - The Accident

The stress level was ridiculously high from the competition and the conference. And Luis wasn't helping at all. No, he wasn't being a jerk or whatsoever, on contrary, he........ He became the sweetest creature in the history. I couldn't believe the effort he made ALL DAY to treat me like a princess. Just listening to my concerns and ramblings, comforting me, and most of all giving me a comfortable space to work in. He wasn't at all demanding. He was available like everytime I went on WhatsApp. So why did I say he wasn't helping at all? Because it took everything I had to push back the urgency to say the L-word back to him. I was afraid I wasn't being rational and it was only my emotions talking.

Until it was really late at night and I was finally done with my work. I insisted on being on the phone just before I went to sleep because I really needed to hear his voice. I felt good about this call because I got to be at my best behavior since the stress for the day had come off. I was focused on giving him my full attention from the energy I have left and making him feel special. Till one of us joked about kids, I was too tired to remember who (I was closing my eyes the entire call). But somehow this happened:

V: I will tell the kids about the silliest things about you. The mistakes; everything.

L: And I will too, to them. I will badmouth you.

V: Hey what are you gonna tell them! I don't have a bad thing in me.

L: I'll just make up stuffs and they will believe it because they love their daddy so much.

V: They love their mommy more! But don't be sad, cause Mommy loves Daddy.

And there was this silence. I thought the connection broke or something so I just stayed silent too. Until he said, "So you love me too."

My eyes flew open and my heart skipped a beat. I couldn't have just told him I love him! I can't believe it slipped off my mind! I don't bite my nails yet I found myself biting my nails. "Umm, I think I do." Gosh, what am I doing?! This is mayday.

But then the craziest thing happened: I felt warmth inside me. It didn't feel like it was a mistake nor it was too fast for both of us to say that. I believe his intentions and I trust my feelings too. That night we ended the phone call by saying, "Love you!" And it felt like... the most natural thing. Yes, I love him too.

Sep 20 - Sweet Treat

Nobody cares about what their boyfriend has for dinner. So what if it's a pancake? So what if it's with chocolate paste? But when you're dating someone who isn't so good with overly sweet words but makes the sweetest little gestures, you will care about everything about him, because you know he is so special and you just have to keep him around.

It's the constant reminder of how I always am on top of his mind. Everyday.

Sep 19 - Recipes for Love

Many things happened today.

1. I woke up with the most guilty feeling realizing I fell asleep for three times (Three times!) last night, leaving him in a middle of cute conversations. Yesterday I told him that I just found out that the competition I'm trying for kicked off way earlier than the usual, annual timeline. This created chaos and the result is my team has to submit an investment report, which is normally made in a month, by next week. That translates to madness. Adding our classes to the equation, imagine how even lesser time we have for each other. But he was so gentle with me although I left him like all the time.

2. He wanted to talk about our break. In the morning following our break that night, we just went back to our normal selves and never brought that up. So we did. I'm so glad that our feelings didn't change and that we still have faith in each other that is strong enough to continue our relationship.

3. My phone takes the most battery, it's crazy. I had to spend all day long outside, I couldn't charge my phone, so I had to turn off the internet connection most of the times. One time I turned it on and found a hysterical LINE chat from Irene saying that Luis had been texting her only to see how she was doing. But I knew there must be sincerity and sweetness in his words, otherwise Irene wouldn't say "I'm basically floating on the sky right now." In capital letters. It was the cutest thing ever that he felt the need to check up on her and little things like that just made me swoon.

4. It's been quite sometime so I thought it's time for my sister Astrid to know about us. We were on the phone for almost two hours because she asked for the tiniest, littlest details! Hahaha. It felt right to ask her for her opinions and objectives, I guess she's always been my guardian angel. But then something happened. After I got off phone with her, Luis called me. And Mom came into the room so I had to say bye in like a split second. I know it's not fair for him this way, but I hope he understands Mom is not judging him personally, it's that she just doesn't trust foreign guys in general. And Lu's skepticality about marriage isn't something I can use to prove her wrong with. I really hope it will get better for us. She just needs more time.

Yup, I think I'm gonna say the L-word back any day now.

Sep 17 - The Break

Yes, we said sorry. Yes, we forgave each other and are ready to put it all behind us. But in order to know whether we really were okay about this matter, and about our relationship at all, I asked him for a little break. We are not breaking up, no, but I told him I needed some time off to rethink everything and I believe it would do him good too. By being separated and not talking to each other that evening until the following morning, I really think the pressure will come off and we will get to decide what we really feel about each other. Although he seemed reluctant, he agreed.

I couldn't sleep that night. I thought a lot about us and what would happen to us. Out of nowhere, hours after we last spoke to each other, my phone beeped of an incoming image, without any text.

Sep 17 - Holding My Breath

It started with this funny picture. It was supposed to be a relaxed talk in the morning but he incidentally ruined it by being so unbelievable (it’s kinda hard to put into words). I gave him a silent treatment for sometime but he didn’t seem to pick up the hints. I know he knew something was wrong, but he didn’t pry on enough to really understand me, so I decided to get busy and just leave. But who am I kidding? I am never that someone who would prefer a cold war instead of a hot-headed fight. After minutes of silence, I pulled the trigger, “It’s your stubbornness.”

As I was waiting for the chat to send, I realized something, he had changed his profile picture to his brother’s three kids, not my photo anymore. From the very beginning, I had told him I wouldn’t mind he replaces his profile picture on WhatsApp with something else. The kids are aaaah-dorable! But the fact that he did that when we were in the middle of a fight annoyed the hell out of me.

So after listening to him defending himself about my it’s-your-stubbornness comment and ironic thank-you-for-making-me-your-profile-picture-for-so-long, I asked him, “Is this why you don’t want to get married? So that every time you have a problem with your partner, you can easily escape it?” And by that, we were entering this danger zone. He answered and I replied for five good minutes before it reached the highest tension.

V: … You also said you’d push away your stubbornness and now you’re holding on to that so tightly. Either I’m delusional or this is really ‘a reverse day’. ;)

L: You don’t think I’m trying? I can’t help it when I’m stubborn sometimes. I didn’t choose to be like this. I am trying to change it.

V: Maybe you are trying. Maybe you are not. I will never know. All I know, you told me my reaction wasn’t the reason why you put off my picture, when everyone can easily tell that it is. So maybe you are not always as honest as you said.

L: Thanks for not believing in me. ;) This hurts me. I never lied to you about anything.

V: While we’re at this, wanna know what else I find ironic? ;)

After three minutes of no reply, and finally exiting WhatsApp, I wrote this, “No? Oh right! It’s Luis’ reversal day. When you say yes, that means no. So when you disrespectfully exit WhatsApp in the middle of our intense conversation, that means you are dying to hear what I have to say. So I’ll just say this. I spent all morning waiting for you to wake up, thinking, “Oh I’m so close to loving him.” Have a good day with Cindy.”

It’s his reply that made my heart skipped a beat, “I had to prepare quick because Cindy texted that she would be here in 5 mins. Maybe you were right about the marriage thing. But it’s you don’t believe me that’s hurting me. And yeah while you’re joking about reversal day, MAYBE I HATE YOU. That’s why I am so mean to you.”

My knees went jelly, “What is the reverse of ‘hate’?” To which he replied an hour later, “Maybe it’s love.” I knew I had to turn off my phone to regain consciousness. Maybe it’s not what it looks like, you know? I shouldn’t overreact. I broke the halt by texting him another hour later, almost completely off-topic, “Sayang, ik heb jou ook gemist.” This translates to “Honey, I miss you.” But he didn’t flinch at the distraction. 

That day he declared his love to me.

At a loss for words, I tried my best just to ignore his confession and was just happy for we now were talking with clearer minds and less bad-tempers. After another series of argument following this one-day fight, we tore down the walls we'd built and finally made up to each other. We closed the day with a five-minute phone call where he said he loves me for the very first time. Yes, he'd said it on text, but hearing him say that on the phone was all different: it made me feel as if I was struck by lightning. I hadn't say it back, but going to bed that night, I knew it wouldn't take long until I would be convinced that the feeling is mutual.

Sep 15 - Midnight Emergency

When you like someone, you want them to be happy. When you really like someone, you want to make them happy. And when they are not, you want to be there for them. But in certain times, you can’t.

I woke up this morning to find a text from him, sent at 02:02 in my end. I was fast asleep; I didn’t check my phone after we said good night a few hours ago. The text was short, but it’s clear enough to let me know that something was wrong, or is wrong. It said, “I need you…”

Waiting for him to wake up was probably the most torturing thing I’ve had lately; it gave me the most uneasy feeling for I just wanted to know he was okay. He waking up a little later than the usual also didn’t help; I kept on thinking the possible reasons that made him say that in the middle of the night. Until he did and, ever so smoothly, I asked him to tell me everything.

It took everything in me not to break down due to the fact that we’re 11k kilometers apart. If I could, I would just fly to him and pull him into a tight hug, letting him know that everything was going to be alright, and I will be there with him every step of the way until this problem he’s been having is solved. But I couldn’t. I couldn’t even wake up that night to listen to him when he needed me the most.

“… We’re stuck where we are. It’s so hard, it’s so far. This long distance is killing me.”

A purple butterfly hair accessory Grandpa’s brother’s wife gave me last night which, according to Luis, is not a coincidence because I’m his butterfly. “Honey look it sparkles!!!” I said, following the picture. “Like you,” said the guy.

Sep 14 - WBB & WBG

L: Honey.

V: Yes?

L: If you feel like talking or are feeling bad about something, never doubt to say it. I will always listen to you (dolphin). Please never think, "Oooh, he doesn't want to hear it so I won't tell him.".

V: Did you read the papers?

L: No why?

V: I think the front page should be the news of you being awarded "World's Best Boyfriend" for four-weeks straight.

L: Hehehe Babyyyy. Yeah but only the picture and title. The whole text under it is a how amazing my girl is.

Later that night after I went home from Grandma's birthday party, we tried to be on the phone because Stephanie wanted to speak to him. Too bad the connection was frustrating, we couldn't even send him a picture! We tried LINE, Skype, internet, but it was all error. Tsk, tsk, it's hard. But WBB & WBG have to stay together. <3

Sep 13 - The Shock

He wrote me a good night message and it was really, really long. One of the longests ever, I'm sure. I just realized the following morning that it contains this part,

"...... And yes, it's true, true love is the only thing that matters in life. What is life without love.. But I know I have found my love, you really are. And I think I am close to loving you, to be honest. Try to love me too? .........."

HUH?? Did he just--?

Sep 13 - Stubborn Soldiers

L: I just can wait to tickle you.
V: HAHAHAHA CAN! Hahahahahahaha
L: Can't!!!
V: But it's the second time you say it! The first time was I can wait to see you.
L: I will do it, you will see yourself. (halo)
V: What if.... Deep inside.... You really don't want to see me.... *horror music playing in background* (shocked cats)
L: *puts the horror music off and puts my arm around you telling you that you are my sayang (kiss)*
V: Sorry I took longer to reply. I had to bark at the butterflies to stop flying around so aggressively.

L: Hehe Cutie, it's just me. (closing eyes monkey)

V: Shit they really won't listen to me!!! Stubborn butterflies. Baby do something!

L: Ummm they are stubborn because I'm too. That means they are my butterflies. (embarrassed face)

V: Ah!!!! That's why!!!! You and all your army are all stubborn. (cat face)

L: Your stubborn. But you know Honey, tell me what you did! I'm not that stubborn with you.. You did something to me.

Sep 11 - Family Matters

"You want to see something depressing?" My heart leapt a few seconds. What did I do wrong this time?

I got the picture as the answer.

He's too weird sometimes.

This afternoon I was asked by Grandma to visit her, while he and I already arranged a phone call session. I finally told him about grandma and her behavior over the years. At first we were texting but it got complicated, so I decided to call him on LINE in Irene's room with her laying beside me. The calls were interrupted by Grandma's constant attempt to make me stay in her room but I escaped every time, hehe.

Irene.... was really nuts, hahahaha. I told her she could be on the phone with him and she said okay ever so calmly. But when I was about to dial him, Irene began squeaking and squealing of excitement and it was hilarious! During the call she also did that and the craziest part was that even when we ended the call, she literally was still jumping all over the bed, even to outside the room where Aunt Adel is teaching Niel on his homework. I had to ask Lu, "Whom are you dating? Irene or me? Why is Irene so excited!" Hahahaha, I love her. They even texted each other when I was called to Grandma's room; too cute.

I don't know what's his deal, today he was behaving really sweetly all day long. He calls me lovely names, he doesn't tease me that much, he gives his utmost attention during our long phone call. He also opens up about his relationship with his brother Antonio and for me that's everything. He lets me step into his life, and I value it more than anything.