May 05 - Screw You, BuzzFeed

Woke up to this:

Those heartbreaking goodbye hugs before one of them has to leave the other. --> I started tearing up pretty much right away. Such a pussy.

The part where the girl's best friend is in the middle of telling an important story but the guy's text comes in so she has to reply to it as soon as possible.

The part where the guy stays in his bedroom, away from his friends, because he's on the phone with her (and probably mouthing "Ik kom zo").

Writing each other letters, looking away from affectionate couples, being temporary healed by inhaling each other's scent, fighting to stay calm when the connection cuts out, and resolving every argument much earlier just because not speaking to each other drives us even more nuts.

In another video, the girl said, "The hardest part is feeling that nobody else thinks that what you're doing is sustainable."

I can't. So damn relatable. :( Leave it to BuzzFeed to break my heart.

May 03 - Doubt-Killing Method

After binge-watching The Bachelorette, I feel my insecurities reawakened. It's really not that I don't trust Lu or something related to him, it's just about love and relationship in general. Full explanation here.

On the phone call just now, following my repetitive, boring-as-hell rant:

V: You're going to tell me the second you're unsure about us, right? *giggles knowing he's so tired of having to answer the same thing over and over again*

L: Of course, you can just wait till forever.

I bursted laughing, told him I need to hang up, and headed on over to this blog. The spontaneity of his reply wins me over. It's witty, effortless, natural, and, on top of everything, it potrays his utmost sincerity. I'm serious, the guy can do no wrong. *swoons*

May 01 - The Trampoline

He's traveling to London, Ibiza, Valencia, and Calpe till next week, that and the fact that my startup is on the floating side buy me so much time to write, hence the long overdue completed Summer 2015 tales / daily journals; finally. 

I knew the last two days would mess me up inside, but actually shedding a tear was beyond expectation. It will continue to hurt while we are away, with some days being even more painful than the others, and in some it takes next to every effort to remind each other that we are only communicating via FaceTime.

The first half of today was the better one. This half? A living nightmare.